here and now

“You wanna fly, you got to give up the shit that weighs you down.” ― Toni Morrison

It happened again today. While getting ready for the WOD and watching the demos, processing the movements and reps. I turned to Rich and said, ‘I can’t do this. Especially with weight on the bar. There’s no way.’ And there it was, that word; Can’t. Brought to life before the WOD even had a chance to begin. And I believed it too. This is my first time trying the Bear Complex WOD, and at first glance it just looked plain scary.


I. “Bear Complex”

5 Sets:

7 Reps of (1 rep is 1 complete sequence of the following movements):

Power Clean

Front Squat

Push Press

Back Squat

Push Press

Completed: 5 sets at 55lbs.

II. Tabata Mountain Climbers

I was certain I couldn’t add weight and complete this WOD. But this was one of those days when looking around the triple wide and seeing what fellow ACF’ers were up to, served to push me beyond what I was certain I could not do. People were adding bumpers to their bars. And so, not to be totally lame, I grabbed two 10lbs bumpers and loaded up my 35lbs. bar for 55lbs. total, not really thinking I’d be able to actually pull it off. But, what the heck, I thought. I’ll start and see where it leads. Just that little extra push of seeing what if.

Sure enough, I pushed through the Can’t all the way till the end, completing the WOD, bumpers and all.

This has to be one of my most profound takeaways from CF. The ability, the wherewithal to see past the thought that I just can’t do something. Sometimes the idea that I Can’t is so strong, it becomes a belief. An absolute. A truth. And I don’t even try because of it. But in many of these WOD’s, in small silent barely noticeable moments, the clock starts, and with it my body starts moving too, my doubts disappear, and all there is the strength of my grip, the force of my effort, and my mind focused in on the here and now of that exact moment, not two movements ahead, or what’s for dinner, or what I need to do tomorrow.

I suppose its when truly focused on the absolute task in hand, that I forget that I can’t, and just do. And that is a perfect moment.

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