The 90-DC is over.
Coincidentally, a very personal chapter in another part of my life so too just came to a close as the wheels of a plane left the ground at the airport this morning.
With all these endings it seems only fitting that my mojo has decided to go on hiatus as well.
I’m tired, hungry, emotional.
I know this is a temporary lull. It will not be too long before I’m back on the CF Bandwagon. But for today I’m content to go straight home after work, draw the blinds, and sleep for the remainder of the day, or two, and try to process. And really, what better moment then from deep within the current deafening inertia to re-post the following energized thoughts on the 90-DC which were submitted in joyful glee to ACF only a few short days ago:
The grass is always greener. You can’t do it. You’re not strong enough, fast enough, determined enough. You’re too short, too tall, too old. Blue is not a good color on you. Why do you always look so tired? You make the coffee too weak, your sock drawer is a disaster, you always say the wrong thing at the wrong time, and you might as well know right now, nobody really likes your rendition of Happy Birthday.
There, now that we got that out of the way. Feel better? How about this for a change:
You CAN lift heavy shit. You just did your first double-under. You not only know what a Sumo Deadlift High Pull is, but you can do it, at RX. You show up every day, whether you’re feeling happy, or sad, or indifferent. You cheer your fellow CrossFitters, and at the end of the WOD, you help them put their gear away. You listen, you ask questions, you encourage. You reach out your hand and introduce yourself. You smile even when you may not feel like it. And just when you think there isn’t one more burpee left in your aching elbows, you drop to the ground, and you do it.
And when the WOD is over, and you look around you, you smile. You recognize there is no better feeling. You CAN do it. You can do anything. You are strong enough. You know there is no better place to be, than right here, right now, working your ass off towards a better you. You are committed. You are determined. And above all, you finish what you start.
This is what the 90-Day Challenge has taught me: to live in the moment, and even though things may sag (your commitment, your ability, your self-esteem) and even though it may seem like there’s no end in sight: You. Keep. Showing. Up. You put one foot in front of the other, and you walk through the door.
You finish what you start. Because that is who you are. And you are better for it every day.
Postscript: Tomorrow I will start finishing what I start.