“Once you can accept the universe as matter expanding into nothing that is something, wearing stripes with plaid comes easy.” ― Albert Einstein

Today my coworker and I took a healthy lunch break. Ducking out between the cubes, destination; The Nooner at ACF.

Me: Was the world supposed to end today?

Co-worker: Ummm. No. I think that’s 12-21-12


If we were to know when the world ends, would you change anything?

Would you do something different? For me it’s hard to say. My heart is in a good place. Not to say I do not have my own set of demons to slay and hurdles to leap over but I feel more equipped than ever to get the job done. I know myself better, more comfortable, confident in who I am. My soul is in a good place too. I try to be a good person, I am a good person. I take being a good person, personally. Would I go sky diving or ride a rodeo horse if the world were ending? No to the first, have done the second. In fact, have spent the better part of the first half of my life pursuing dreams. Still pursuing them to this day. Aren’t we all? Knowing the world was going to end in two days wouldn’t get me any closer to the dreams I pursue today. I’d have to take heart in knowing I’m doing my very best.

I would want to be with people though. For the end of the world. The people I care about most. And my dog. Ever notice you have different contingents of people you care about, in separate groups, and they all don’t know each other? So you’d have to choose which ones you would spend those final moments with because chances are they would not all convene in the same room, unless it’s your wedding, or funeral. If it’s your funeral you’re screwed either way; if it is the end of the world or not it’s still your funeral and at that point you wouldn’t be able to talk to anyone.

There are certain things in life I thought I would know, would like to have known, but may never. You never do know. But that’s all part of it too. If you knew everything, experienced everything, then things would feel kind of empty don’t you think? You’d have a ‘been there done that’ kind of outlook and no one would want to hang out with you or invite you anywhere because you’d spend the whole time telling them how it was different for you and how this isn’t like you remember and they certainly don’t make things like they used to.

There’s joy in new experiences. Profound joy. Like the feeling I had when I PR’d on my deadlift during the Strongman Comp on Sunday. I remember staring at the ceiling of the triple wide all the way through the lift. Look Up! Up! And I did. And everything turned to white, and what seemed like a minute was probably only a few seconds, but the second I knew I nailed it and lowered the bar to the floor, warmth surged through my body from my heart down to my hands and feet and out my extremities, and I was transported for a moment to someplace else, somewhere really quite magical where just about anything is possible and you feel nothing but truly utterly and momentously alive.

That’s a pretty amazing feeling. And one hard to capture or replicate. It’s an end result of a lot of hard work and all the stars being aligned and molecules falling into place and state of mind, right down to the splash of cream in my coffee that morning.

A true Perfect Moment.

I like to collect these, Perfect Moments. Throughout a lifetime. You know when you’re in the middle of one. It’s precious. For me it’s akin to a stopping of the clock; all of Father Time coming to a halt for you and in an instant you have no doubt or fear or anxiety or want for anything and you possess a knowing that you are exactly where you are meant to be at that very precise moment.

Yes, a deadlift can do this. So can a shared laugh, or a hug, or writing a letter, or riding a horse at sunset, or rounding third base for home, or looking out an airplane window, or visiting a sick friend.


I. Conditioning:


Deadlift (95/65)

Hang Power Clean

Front Squat

Push Jerk

*25 minute cap

Completed: at 55lbs. in 21:05. Thought about going 65lbs. There was a lot of talk of which weight to choose. Caleb’s advice, if you’re unsure, go lighter than you think. This bar complex is a killer. He was right. I went with 55lbs. This is not one of those days when I think I should have gone heavier.

It’s a scary moment when you’re deep into your first round and already struggling with too many to count reps ahead of you and you’re certain you’re never going to be able to finish. Yet somehow you do finish. Yep, you said it, another Perfect Moment.

and just like that

“…true freedom is impossible without a mind made free by discipline.” – Mortimer Jerome Adler

Happy Monday!

Sometimes I don’t include the warm-ups in the WOD posting, for whatever reason the WOD always gets the majority of my attention usually because it is the one kicking my ass. But, not today. Seems the warm-up had something to say too. It was determined not to be overlooked. Today the warm-up had a voice. And it came in loud and clear.


Row 500m

10 Pistols

Row 500m

15 Burpees

Row 500m

20 Jumping Alternating Lunges

Completed. And then wondered how it was possible that we still needed to WOD. Nicely done, ACF. Way to dazzle and keeps us on our toes.


I. “Diane”

21 – 15 – 9

Deadlifts (225/155)

Handstand Pushups

*12 Minute Time Cap

Completed: Kevin suggested keeping our weight the same as the last time we hit Diane. Mine was 105lbs. in 5:35 back on 4/3/2012. While it felt kind of light to me, I listened to the our local CF Savant and kept the weight the same. So glad I did. My time: 4:37. Knocked off almost an entire minute from my last PR in less than a month.  Woot. Also noticed I’m getting lower to the ground on the ring push ups. Very interesting.

And just like that, all my stresses from the day melted away into nothingness. Therein lies the secret to my love affair with CF: Measurable personal successes captured in perfect moments.

II. Run 1 Mile for Time

Completed: 9:35.

here and now

“You wanna fly, you got to give up the shit that weighs you down.” ― Toni Morrison

It happened again today. While getting ready for the WOD and watching the demos, processing the movements and reps. I turned to Rich and said, ‘I can’t do this. Especially with weight on the bar. There’s no way.’ And there it was, that word; Can’t. Brought to life before the WOD even had a chance to begin. And I believed it too. This is my first time trying the Bear Complex WOD, and at first glance it just looked plain scary.


I. “Bear Complex”

5 Sets:

7 Reps of (1 rep is 1 complete sequence of the following movements):

Power Clean

Front Squat

Push Press

Back Squat

Push Press

Completed: 5 sets at 55lbs.

II. Tabata Mountain Climbers

I was certain I couldn’t add weight and complete this WOD. But this was one of those days when looking around the triple wide and seeing what fellow ACF’ers were up to, served to push me beyond what I was certain I could not do. People were adding bumpers to their bars. And so, not to be totally lame, I grabbed two 10lbs bumpers and loaded up my 35lbs. bar for 55lbs. total, not really thinking I’d be able to actually pull it off. But, what the heck, I thought. I’ll start and see where it leads. Just that little extra push of seeing what if.

Sure enough, I pushed through the Can’t all the way till the end, completing the WOD, bumpers and all.

This has to be one of my most profound takeaways from CF. The ability, the wherewithal to see past the thought that I just can’t do something. Sometimes the idea that I Can’t is so strong, it becomes a belief. An absolute. A truth. And I don’t even try because of it. But in many of these WOD’s, in small silent barely noticeable moments, the clock starts, and with it my body starts moving too, my doubts disappear, and all there is the strength of my grip, the force of my effort, and my mind focused in on the here and now of that exact moment, not two movements ahead, or what’s for dinner, or what I need to do tomorrow.

I suppose its when truly focused on the absolute task in hand, that I forget that I can’t, and just do. And that is a perfect moment.