Finding the Why. Part II.

“He who has a why to live for can bear almost any how.” Friedrich Nietzsche


I love stories of people leaving their jobs and pursuing their dreams. Love these people and their Exit Letters. Whether it is due to an unexpected and potentially devastating departure like being laid off, or just having had enough and pulling the evacuation chute;  the key is in seeing it all as one giant opportunity – like this gentleman, Richard Tseng, who compared himself to a tough old Eskimo broad.

Perhaps you just finally decide to go it on your own and start your own business, like Mr. Cake in the UK.

mr cake

These stories unite and inspire. They teach that there is indeed more life out there. Potentially the life of your dreams if you haven’t already found it. If you think about it the opportunities really are *fnn endless. You just have to jump.

I’m pretty sure I haven’t found the sweet spot yet. While I do enjoy my job and the community within which I work, there’s a deeper burning that won’t quit. It’s buried deep and it’s always there. It reminds me that the Why for my being –  my own personal elusive quan – is still out there and I just haven’t locked that sucker down yet. Not quite. Therefore I am merely existing. What is that elusive Why? What does it look like? If I had to make a list of Why Characteristics it would look like this:

  1. Connecting
  2. Creating hope
  3. Building something tangible, something good, and making a living at it
  4. The ray of light at the end of dark tunnels
  5. Being my own boss
  6. Building my dream home
  7. Living with humor

I want the knowing of that old Eskimo broad, confident and smart enough to slay the polar bear and feed the entire clan.

What if?

“Start by doing what’s necessary, then what’s possible, and suddenly you are doing the impossible.” ~ Francis of Assisi


Russian Gymnastics Warm-Up – Day 1


I. Hang Squat Cleans

5 – 3 – 2 – 1

Completed: at 55lbs, 65lbs. and then 75lbs. Thanks to Jason telling me to Git It. Which I did. Till the last rep. I tried for 85lbs. The weight was on there, all I had to was ONE REP. And I couldn’t pull it off. I was thinking too much, too caught up in the what ifs, and not enough in the just doing its. I basically psyched myself out. Put the weight down. Took off 10, and did the last rep at the same 75lbs. Felt kind of lame about this.

II. Kettlebell Swing Volume Ladder (70/53)

Completed: 17 rounds. If you do 1 rep during minute one, then 2 reps in minute two, and so on. And continue to do so all the way to 17 reps in minute seventeen. How many reps is that total?

Give up?

153 reps. Does that seem right to you? I was happy with this, at 30lbs. Until Kim called my bluff, and said, You can go heavier. And of course she’s right. And I know it. But, what if??

Interestingly, after writing this post, I meandered on over to CrossfitLizBeth, and she had linked to another post, This Bar Is Light. Pay attention to what’s written there, especially when he writes; “It’s like when I see a CrossFitter — usually, a woman — shake her head “no” in the middle of a workout. Shake her head. If you think the weight is heavy, it will feel heavy…”

Bet I was shaking my head ‘no’ today.